Who's house? Shoe's House... I said who's house? Shoe's house!!!

Another day gone, another page done! I am getting pretty fast at this. The latest piece is the Shoe House. In essence, it's a traditional lacing page but I thought it would be fun to give a nod to the nursery rhymes and give it that "lived in" look. It comes complete with a window, door, and extra thick lacing for little fingers. The door even holds a little surprise for the extra curious....

So it took a couple hours to cut, and three hours to piece together with Trevor (my loving husband) aiding in the rivet process. I work pretty late and so he graciously offered to run up our apartment complex driveway to hammer them on without annoying our neighbors. He is a saint... don't I know it.

And all that was done by 2 am.

So why the hell am I up at 6:40am writing this blog? Cause our little one has inherited his father's curly hair and button nose, my enthusiasm and insomnia. He woke up wide awake at 4am. And when I say awake, I mean it's as if he's been fed jet fuel. As I type, he is animatedly singing in the kitchen and I am sucking down caffeine.

Normally I wouldn't mind. I have the same enthusiasm and insomnia. In fact, I often wear him out rather than vice versa, but I think I have been tapping myself out a bit with all the sewing. I think today is going to be a day off. I am tired. Since I gave birth a year ago, I haven't quite been myself. Between hormones and learning to juggle Sky's needs with my own, I have had quite the difficulty finding any motivation for creativity at all and so I have been in quite the rut. Now with this project, inspiration has put me into overdrive and as always, I take everything as far as I can. But that same energy can burn me out and encourage mistakes.... so before I tank this incredibly important book, I shall say adieu for a day and relax... if this little wired one lets me.

I'm on a kaiser....Page 4!!! The zipper page.

It's a moon. I've mooned you. Punny, eh?

Ok, so I'm tired and silly. Whatcha going to do about it, eh? 


Today's blog is about the next page in the infamous baby book. Honestly, I thought it was going to be a couple days before I got this one done. It has a zipper... oooooh scary. Zippers are universally intimidating. They require a different sewing foot, they need to be semi invisible, and they need to work without that annoying thing where the fabric gets stuck in them. That and they can eat your fingers....well sometimes...that and other body parts...American Pie anyone? It's enough to make the whole sewing thing go downhill for me... but guess what? I did it... rather well as first zippers go. 


I even did some quilt patch-working on this page, with seams and everything. I am sewing mistress extraordinaire today.... and loopy as I'm sure you can tell (it's really easy to tell with me... my writing gets extra dots...like everything is one long sentence....he..heh...heheheh)

So the underlying twist of this rather tame looking page is that it's a zipper surprise. Under this sleepy moon, lies a passionate explosion of color... our friend the sun...


Now before I get twenty comments about how a separating zipper is difficult even for an adult...I've already tortured myself enough with that dilemma so don't bother... both Trevor and I are going to help Sky with this page... and we both figure he can benefit from the challenge eventually (he's really smart) and most of his sweaters have this type of zipper.


Ok, enough of my infantile defensiveness...I digress....


So once he pulls the fun little star (very secure with button thread), he can open the page to reveal the peek a boo celestial body. It's a simple concept but it utilizes the most sophisticated sewing techniques I've used to date. I am getting better at this whole thing...this educational book for Skyler is an excellent sewing class... I highly recommend it as a self training technique for beginners. That coupled with how-to's on the net and you have yourself a one way ticket to competence town. 

Another challenge met...I feel all powerful. Now off to caffeine town...care to join me?

Steampunk Octopus....I really am that odd!

I'm married to an artist.
It's a wonderful and terrible thing.

 Wonderful because unlike all the men that have honored me with their love and patience over the years, he is the one who can understand me the best. He feels the siren call of our shared mistress. He isn't jealous of my art, my obsession, for he shares it. He speaks the language of children, as all artists do, and so we spend countless hours being silly and creative and we don't feel a bit bad about it. He is passionate, obstinate, and selfish. I am too. It's a match made in heaven.... and hell depending on who's looking.

Terrible because he is the single most devastating critic in my life. I so value him, so admire him, he has the power to destroy me with just a look, a sigh, or a word. And so often he does. But that isn't his fault. It's my own insecurity.

All artists are insecure. Even the arrogant ones....especially the arrogant ones. It's the driving force behind our perfectionism. So many of us are seeking to validate ourselves...carve a piece of immortality and be remembered for something. It's a need that pulls the creativity from us. I think of us as the children that never outgrew the need to see our work proudly displayed on the kitchen fridge. 

I digress.... anyway...back to Trevor the destroyer..(heheh, he'll love that) and the relevance to the blog at hand.. Lately I've been seeking to find the type of mark I want to make in this world. The art that I want to be remembered for. Style is often the topic of much frustration among artists. It's the thing that we seek to find... a cohesive visual language that binds all our work together...makes it unique to us. The language I've been working on is a cross between surrealism, fantasy, whimsy, and bit of editorial. I like the work of the old masters with an edge and more of a childlike bent. I want texture. I want collage. I want it all. Actually truth be told, I don't know what the hell I want. But I figure I'll know it when I see it. When I look at my work and I want to buy it. 

So I do this painting at one of my live paintings, a steam punk octopus....and I love it. So does Trevor...at first. So here I am glowing. I am on the fridge with a big fat A+ plastered in the center. But it isn't finished. So I work on it... and work on it...damn it's detailed ...but after much griping and work, it's done. And I'm on cloud nine. It's exactly how I envisioned it. But the snag is... Trev isn't as enamored with it anymore. It's darker than it was... less whimsical... less cartoonish. It's off the fridge. 


Now what? This has happened before...ironically with my second favorite painting... the bee painting, "The Becoming".  I love it. He doesn't. It's becoming glaringly apparent that our tastes have found a divide. And I think this is a new turning point in my mental state. It's time to grow up. I've outgrown the fridge. I need to realize that this new leg of my journey is far too personal to look to others for validation. That needs to come from within. So it's okay that my wonderful Trevor doesn't always agree with me.... he's still the best friend that I could ever ask for. He might not be able to hold my hand from here on in.... but he's always there to break my fall..with silliness and a million kisses.  The benefit of marrying an artist... 

Texture, Texture, and more TEXTURE!!!

After successfully creating three pages of my "Baby Soft Book" for my son, Skyler....I can honestly say that this is a blast. Although I don't recommend everyone jumping into sewing a book, I do think that everyone should try to spend some time every day thinking like a small child.

Designing this texture page in particular, I was struck with the things that occur to you. As any one year old will tell you...if they could tell you, texture is a big thing. It's the very essence of tactile sensation and there just can't be too much of it. More is definitely more.

Now looking at this page as an adult,you might not see the appeal of this rag tag flower garden, but look closer with a toddler's perspective and you will see a veritable smörgåsbord of textural delights:

The sky is made of three different pieces of Skyler's old baby jeans complete with a miniature pocket and tons of seams. The ground is a combination of corduroy and satin with embedded round metal pieces (impossible to come off so no choking hazard there!). The flowers come replete with faux fur, bendable tiers of stiff fabric petals,"tags" made of folded ribbon, and tons of buttons. And the pièce de résistance? A miniature faux-leather owl that can "fly" out of the pocket.

I have to say... I found myself "molesting" the page at every step of the creation process. It's just too tempting. And what was even more fun was trying to destroy it. In an effort to baby proof it (gawd, the thought of him choking on something I made him... *shudder*), I have used all my strength to rip the buttons and petals. Surprisingly, it's almost as fun as creating them.

So a third page done and a new addiction to tactile sensation. I have a feeling that by the time I finish this book, I will be walking around with a block in my mouth, pulling books apart and loving every minute of it... till Skyler takes them from me... *sigh*.

Little Hearts.... Fabric in my Jewelry...

This morning needs to be soaked in extra coffee. In fact, if I wasn't so committed to this blog, I think I would be mainlining it while trying to take a nap on the couch.... of course that would be difficult with my 11 month old running around so maybe it's good that I'm trying to write.

So why am I so tired? The baby book deadline. I have this fear of not getting it done so I am pushing myself hard. I have 18 days till it needs to be done and wrapped. Depending on the difficulty, I seem to need between 2-3 days for each page. Including the cover, the back pages, and putting it all together, I figure I have the equivalent of 5 pages. So it should be enough. Should be... if I don't get in any serious hand to hand combat with my sewing machine.

So as a creative side trip, yesterday I experimented with some fabric jewelry options. I thought it might be good to have a few more options besides the hand painted jewelry. They turned out cute, I think. Soft and puffy, with old fashioned buttons, stitching, and even a mini safety pin.

So this all prompted the Etsy discussion with my husband. He graciously offered to make my shop if I continued to make weird little jewelry and stuffed animals. I can't help but wonder if anyone would buy any of them... but I guess it couldn't hurt. And it will hopefully motivate me to get more creative with my free time... what little I have with the cute little squawker behind me.

Satan, thy name is Color-Matchy Flower Page

It is official... the second page of the infamous baby book is done! Ok....I lie. It's almost done. I still have to sew on the snaps but that can wait till my hands have recovered...(more on that coming). As you can probably tell, it is a color wheel flower with matching colored bugs. What is probably not as obvious is that it's a game. The cute, slightly rag tag bugs will snap to the flower in any number of combinations including the educational version in which he learns to match colors. Fun and deviously educational...my favorite combination.


Now that I have cheerfully given the "sweet" explanation, let me now digress.... Holy Sh#t!!!!! That had to be the most time consuming thing I have ever done. I am mentally and physically exhausted and I have the sneaking suspicion that I have a brain hemorrhage. I think I will now need a vacation from my back, my hands, and my eyes which are strained from the intense concentration of a woman desperate to bend the thread to her weakening will.


Never in my life have I been more determined to kick a cute little flower's butt. Forget how little and complex the bugs are. Forget the fact that I had the wrong presser foot for the majority of it. The real heart of the matter is that I was cursed. It's really that simple. I must have killed someone in a past life and karma came to reap it's payment in blood, sweat, and bad zig zag stitches. To break it down simply.... the thread broke endless times... the needle jammed 3 times (twice in my fingers... ooof!)...bobbins got tangled...knots spontaneously broke out in fist fights. It was mayhem. Bedlam. The Apocalypse.


Now you might be tempted to think that this in any way dampened my resolve or enjoyment of the whole ordeal. But you would not be entirely correct. While I did have a few fantasies of throwing the damn sewing machine out the window, most of the time it felt kind of like a video game. I like puzzles. Or maybe I really am a masochist. Most likely it's the memory loss after any birth. Now that it's done... I like the cute bugger so much that I guess he was worth all the headaches and nausea. Kind of like Skyler.

The End of Year One...

So Skyler's birthday is fast approaching. It's staggering to think that he has only been in this world for less than a year. I really can't remember my life before he existed.

So naturally we have to celebrate this amazing feat of parenting. I mean that's really what a one year birthday party is for, right? It certainly isn't for the kid. Sky will like the attention but then again he would also like to eat mud. In reality, the first birthday is a parental milestone. It marks a whole year that you managed to keep the kid from killing himself.

In that spirit, Trevor and I eagerly began our favorite activity of any party apart from decorations... creating the invite...

To start we decided on a theme. We both love carnival and circus themes. Deliciously twisted and full of mystery, it's almost as appealing to me as Alice in Wonderland (my absolute favorite in theme and decor). Trev and I especially love the old freak show posters (an apt metaphor for early parenting)...and this became the crux of our design. The colors were inspired by our new favorite toy designers..." B." toys (http://www.facebook.com/B.toys If you haven't checked them out... you have to. Target sells them and the colors are in a word, edible. Rich and luscious not the usual washed out pastels and Crayola primaries. And no... this is not a paid endorsement.)

So we agreed that I would do the primary illustration (done in a bout of brutal insomnia) and Trev would work out the backgrounds and text. The portrait of Skyler was scanned and colored in Photoshop and then fleshed out with layer styles and text. Then my husband pillaged my old watercolors for the giraffe on the back. Brilliant. My husband and I excel at this kind of collaboration...one of the things that drew us to each other. Separately we have very different artistic styles, but together we seem to be able to blend them into a completely new entity. It's almost like our collaboration is an artist in it's own right. And once again... it turned out better than I think either of us could do alone. So good, in fact, that the print shop told us that their designers were uber-impressed (always nice to gain praise from fellow artists). All in all, a worthy declaration of the past year's success. It's time to party and then begin year two of the Skyler Suicide Watch.